I have a deep confession to make.  I am not perfect, but a work in progress.  I have faults, oh, so many faults!  And temptation is still a huge issue with me.  For instance, we cut out most of the bread in our lives a couple of years ago, but after watching the mini-series “Cooked” and reading the book, we conceded that perhaps not all bread was evil, and I started bringing it back into the house.  Only, bread is such an easy snack food that I devour it without a second thought and then I don’t feel all that great, whether it’s from guilt or over-consumption, or whatever.  But even bread has nothing on what I call the three Deadly D’s: Dinner Out, Dessert, and Drinks.

When I go out for dinner, I GO OUT FOR DINNER.  I don’t want any of the wussy salad crap.  I want the signature dish!  The pot of gold that the restaurant is famous for.  This is so dangerous, because I am what you would call a plate-cleaner.  I rarely have leftovers.  When I go out with friends, my stringent guidelines and practices go right out the window!  I divulge my impulses in whatever looks or sounds good.  I will give myself some credit that in recent months, I have chosen healthier options, such as a veggie filled omelette over a cheese filled omelette.  Or the kale and quinoa salad over the Caesar salad.  But I am still quite weak when it comes to social outings and dinner.

And don’t get me started on the dessert.  We went to the Cheesecake Factory last month before the Loreena McKennit concert.  And I had a slice of cheesecake, by myself.  Any other time I am out and about at the grocery store, resisting the bakery and desserts is never an issue.  If Chris and I go out to eat, I’m usually pretty good.  But add a couple of friends to the dinner table, and dessert isn’t even a consideration, it’s a requirement.

I’m usually very very good about drinking.  I tend not to drink when we go out because they usually cost an arm and a leg for one drink.  But, again, add the social aspect and the comfort of being at a friend’s house, then those rules go right out the window, and I don’t even count the calories in each glass of wine or shot of tequila.

I am not writing about these deadly temptations to show my guilt and point out how bad I am.  I am pointing out areas I know I need to work on, and grow with my resolve.  On this day two years ago, I won The Biggest Loser competition by working hard, resisting temptation no matter what, and having a strong resolve.  I know I am capable of achieving it again, but for some reason, I don’t have as much faith in myself anymore, and I give into my impulses more.

I think I do need to work on the Three Deadly D’s and if it’s in my best interest to avoid them for a little while, then so be it.  Perhaps with some healthy habits formed over the next couple of months, I can experience Dinner Out, Dessert, and Drinks without over-doing it and with greater success.